Faithful love cannot be fearful love.
For God so greatly loved and dearly prized the world that He [even] gave up His only begotten ([a]unique) Son, so that whoever believes in (trusts in, clings to, relies on) Him shall not perish (come to destruction, be lost) but have eternal (everlasting) life. - John 3:16
"Here I stand waiting for you to take notice of my yearning to love you completely with everything I have. I will be your back or your front, I will stand by your side, just don’t leave me. I will be your diary … I will keep your secrets. I am your personal cheerleader, I’m here to assist you. I have tunnel vision … I only have eyes for you. But to gaze upon your essence leaves me feeling helplessly ignored. I am pushed aside and sometimes fall flat on my face when I reach out my hand to you for a loving embrace. It’s funny how you desire a faithful love …. But what about me will that same love be returned?" (by Brandy Small)
Not long after I had just graduated from college I made a list … 2 lists to be exact. I made a list of everyone who I loved from who consumed most of my time to least. And the second list was made up of everyone who I felt loved me and who had ALWAYS been there for me. I was disgusted to realize that the two lists were opposite of one another. The number one on my first list was the last on my second list and vice versa. It was a sobering reality.
Who doesn’t want to be loved? To be that special person to somebody special? To be treated like a king or queen in some regards? Who doesn’t want to be appreciated for who they are without pretending to be someone else? An EX-friend of mine felt that they should receive all the benefits of a faithful love without having to reciprocate it, which in my opinion was ludicrous. Therein is the problem. It is unfathomable to me that I should or anyone could love (for real) giving everything to someone who does not reciprocate the same love. However, that’s the kind of love that God has for us and exactly why Jesus died for us. It is because of that love that helped me to stop looking for that love in man and say yes to Jesus.
I am grateful for finding someone who was able to look beyond my past and marry me for my future (only by God's grace). But I still struggle to love unconditionally. In my spirit, a question that continues to nag me is “Even if he does not, will you?” Because when that time comes, as I believe it will, we will all be held accountable for each action, or inaction, deed, word, or thought of our own. When will I stop looking unto others to return to me what God gave so freely? It’s because we all desire a faithful love.
We love Him, because He first loved us. - 1 John 4:19
